Have you ever heard that the more you resist something the more you need it?
I’ve been meditating 10 minutes a day for the past 9 days and it’s been a struggle.
I find myself getting lost in thoughts
or
stretching my neck
or
fidgeting
or
scratching my nose.
I can’t seem to stay focused. I’ve never been diagnosed with ADD, but I clearly have some ADD in me.
I think most of us have ADD in us, especially when we are doing something uncomfortable.
Meditation is uncomfortable for me. It’s forcing me to deal with my wondering thoughts.
I’m not very good right now, but I did notice something positive.
I was on a walk and I noticed my arch nemesis (negative inner voice) began to attack me and how I’m not worthy of my business doing well.
All of a sudden I was thinking:
“Just because my clients are happy now it won’t last. Last week…”
It was at this point I stopped myself.
I noticed my mind wondering into self-hatred and I stopped the attack before it brought me down.
This is a skill I knew I had, but didn’t realize the process as it happened. I was able to watch as I stopped myself from going down a self-destructive thought pattern.
I need more of this in my life.
Your Turn
Are you joining in on the 30 Day Meditation Challenge? What experiences have you encountered?